this is the practice 
 it is always  
 happening  
 this  is  the  dance

Thurs 7 April,
Chay-Ya
I arrived in the studio, and decided to follow the offer of the "30 minute meditation-moving-writing" practise. I was the only one in the studio, the others came later. I decided to adhere to the structure we had agreed on earlier, I realised that everyone was already in the dance, it is always happening.
Here is the writing I wrote during the practise:

there is something interesting, well there is always something interesting occurring,
  I am aware of the value, even if I don't specifically know what it is, of adhering to...
I don't know the words that I am writing, I will just allow my body and my breath to be in my awareness and not leave them somewhere else while I try to write, "try to write"? can i find an openness, a space to be in the writing as I am in the other parts of this practise? This is the writing, the writing is the dance. We are here in space together, Dani is lying on the floor noticing her breath. Nicola has just arrived and is taking off her jacket. I am lying with my hip pressed into the wooden floor, elbow propped at right angles supporting my head, I move, adjust, roll, tap my fingers on the floor, my head in a nook, ear finding a place in my upper arm proximal to my axilla. A truck noising its way through space. I open my arm out wide, opening my body to the ceiling. It feels good, its harder to write suspending the pen in the air and holding the book with my hands. I am arriving, other beings are arriving. People to dance and people to write. It is quiet. It is as if we haven't decided on noise yet. My arms are tiring form writing like this. Half an hour of writing is a long time. Half an hour to do anything is a long time. Is it possible to roll and write at the same time? I am doing it. I made it to the wall. I am here now. I can see Dani moving in my periphery. Is writing useful right now? Do I need to decide on that? Can I follow through with the practise and see how I feel about it later? Can I use this time to "warm up" bring my attention into the space, into this dance that is happening? How is my body? What is my - what parts am I aware of, what is missing? Is it possible to use this writing to zone in/ Does it need to be continuous? Who is making the rules? Maybe I could try walking away from this book and seeing if there is a desire to come back.

If there is thinking should it be attended to through writing? Or only if it is insistent? Clear? Interesting? If it has a momentum to it?

My thought was it would be interesting to try this practise in smaller time increments of two or three minutes. Bam-bam-bam. Continuous. Maybe they get smaller and smaller. So they become like points in space you are in dialogue with. Breath - movement - writing.
Perhaps writing is also "noticing what you are noticing" and doesn't need to involve a pen, or writing is the way you specifically and with detail articulate your body. Breath is where it all begins and comes back to.


I think I am realising the value of following a "practise" it allows the "being in it" to be clearer and more articulate and present.